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[Apr. 13th, 2009|12:36 am] |
I haven't been a good blogger lately, that's for sure.
So, where do I start? Well, march was one of the worst months in awhile, that's for sure.
It started off with me losing my contracts with Keytosound and Koblo, leading to no steady cash coming in. My friend Jason decided it was time to close The Agency, and so Albuquerque lost the best all ages venue its ever had, and a great resource for the arts. I found out that my dog has either failing kidneys or diabetes insipidus, and in general, I was a wreck for most of the month.
The good things? Vertigo Venus took best Punk band in the Alibi's Best of Burque, and I took best electronic act, and best drummer. We also scored best theater production for our stint in Hedwig and the Angry inch, as well as a slew of other little things. That was all quite nice.
So now, I'm nearly halfway through April already, and I'm not entirely sure what I'm doing, in some ways. Luckily, I'm not a person who spends outside of my means, and so I have a good amount of money to fall back on at this time. However, I don't wish to spend all of that money, and so I'm not resting on my laurels. I've been working hard to find new clients in any capacity that I can, but as of late, I've mostly just dealt with a lot of people who say they want to do things, and then don't call me back. I have a little bit of video work to fall back on, and a couple I/T clients, but not much beyond that. I'm unsure what to do with myself because, honestly, Albuquerque doesn't exactly have a big need for people who do what I do; multimedia work isn't in high demand in this city. I'm very lucky to have what I do have, though, and I know that.
I can't decide what I should do, though; I don't know if I should be sucking it up and going back to Trader Joe's right now, or if I should be taking some other job, or if I am on the right path. I do believe that if I could get just a few consistent clients, I would be ok. My monthly overhead isn't much, and honestly, what I'm going to make at most jobs right now isn't going to be a lot more than where I'd be with only a few clients. Of course, the steady money is the issue in the long run. If I can't keep a steady stream, I will start to falter; but I am telling myself that that won't happen. I'm telling myself that I will get a few steady clients, who will put me on retainer, and that I will pay for what I need in life that way. There simply isn't anything for me in this town - what there is is likely already filled, or will be filled by friends of friends. Getting hired for anything that isn't everyday bullshit in ABQ is most certainly painful.
So, I dunno. Life is what it is, and I'm glad to have it at all times. I'm working to not blow out of proportion the small things, and to pay attention to what is good. All I ask is that the Universe do the same. |
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